scatterplot

i consider
life expectancy
cartesian coordinates
a family history
in
mental
physical
chemical
linear
regression
the law of averages
broken
i have lived longer
than my grandfather
and his father
my psyche has aged
to a pivot point
where i am stunned
to have survived so long
yet cannot fathom
seeing fifty
my liver may not see forty
born too late to have burned my bra
or opt out of shaving
my undefined generation
brought forth
big wheels that became suvs
suburban gangsters, nomesayin
and ataris morphed into ifuckingpads
my parents
live in
fear of
being sued
i live in
fear
of living in fear
free radicals
aunt lena jumped in the well
uncle louis
hung himself from a tree
quite voluntarily

outliers
we live out the choices we make
a meteor
missed the earth
by
7,500 miles today
it grazed our temple
in astronomical
proportions
we play russian roulette
on the promenade deck
of the kursk
as i remember
leaving
the
iron
on