a 90 degree afternoon
in late September
leaves boiling off tree limbs
heat swirling billows
of sewer gas necrotic
urine stench blossoming
beneath the grimy crosswalk
underground rivers
of darkened discontent
glassy eyed hatred reflecting
off police car windows
drunken ballerina delirium
magic is dead beneath a tree
in Piatt Park
homeless
helpless
heroin limping
passed children unaware
their poverty is generational
a better life is four tax brackets away
no, son, no…
there is no god
in Over-The-Rhine
today
Tag: poverty
melting pot
america
melting pot
if by melting pot
you mean
everyone is boiled
down to their bones
to be consumed
by rich white men
sometimes
i look at photographs
of my
grapes of wrath worthy
destitute
sunday best ragged
depression sepia
tobacco creased
great-grandparents
and think
i can’t believe these people
fucked each other
the year i moved south
amidst a northern drought
there was a band of arsonists terrorizing
the people of three counties
comprising my childhood stomping grounds
Lincoln, Casey, & Pulaski
Kentucky
.
the bastards burned the hardware store
a few occupied houses
the lumber yard
and my dead daddy’s high school
in eubank
where he was in
future farmers of america
a basketball star
and the first of his mining man clan
to graduate
.
i had moved into my grandmother’s old house with my sons
to write my book
the utilities were reasonable
the memories were free
.
poppies and black irises in the back yard
mockingbirds in the trees
hummingbirds attending gossip socials
and a coat of many colors rose bush
who presented the sunlight back
to god in heaven each morning
.
one dark august night
deep into the soup thick summer heat
i had retrieved a jar of green beans
from the cellar out back
and proceeded to
cook them up with bacon grease
at the same old avocado green
electric whirlpool stove
where i watched
in hungry awe
as memaw did it
a thousand times
.
my loyal staffordshire bull terrier
was laying behind me at my feet
as is tradition when mama is cooking
.
my proximity to danger
was right beside
the side door
in the kitchen
leading out onto a breezeway
and porch
.
i had the big wooden door open
with only the screen door locked
in place to
allow for escaping heat
stirring
stirring
stirring
slow and southern
lost in a dying love poem
.
at the same moment i saw
a bit of night beyond the doorway
move in the shape of a man
up to no good
just when
i heard a gutteral growl come from
the canine creature behind me
comparable to the ear piercing howls
of a minotaur
trapped inside a labyrinthine hell
.
my boy
my dog Vinnie took flight
at the door
his paws never touching the floor
he exploded through the screen after
the menacing figure
.
i gave chase with my shotgun
saw he had three fuckers on the run
silhouette kerosene cans in idle hands
determined to burn down
what the banks
haven’t reclaimed yet
their lives stripped
of purpose and pride
one generationally entrenched
welfare check at a time
.
that night a church went
up in smoke instead
.
that was the evening
Vinnie saved my life
the lives of my twin boys
and the most sacred hiding places
my childhood provided
.
god have pity on the lost
future farmers of america
his chest swelled american
as he boundfully boasted
that he could take me
for a tour
of miles and miles
of land
as it was 500 years ago
as yet untouched
unburdened by even one
power line
to which i responded
by reminding him
i’m from kentucky
when you come from having nothing
a place with nothing
holds no fascination
you can’t feed your children
on wildflowers
and living in
closer proximity
to the stars
for mom
now that i am older
i see
you did the best you could
with what you were given
an old rugged cross
isn’t much good
for feeding four children
but that’s okay
and more than most can say
i love you
there is nothing to be forgiven
kentucky exists as
a painful dichotomy
for the native
it is lush green
mountainous
untamed
awe inspiring in its beauty
bourbon distilled
crystal blue lakes
giving way to ancient streams
bluegrass growing atop
a bloody history
rich in the red clay
rolling cattle and horse farms
all the homegrown vegetables you can eat
but nestled into the picturesque hills
resides a poverty
like nowhere else in the nation
i come from a place so poor
the quality of life so brutally entrenched
few escape
the jobless rate
addiction
obesity
illiteracy
tobacco tumors
shorter life expectancy
and a disability check
dirty politicians
dirty preachers
racism
absolute segregation
in lincoln county
all the black folks live on water street
because that’s where they’re welcome
you see
it’s still 1955 where i’m from
but a little more backwards
because now there’s crystal meth
to pair with
celebrated ignorance
taught as religion
people convinced they’ll burn in hell
if they don’t donate to jesus and republicans
i go back from time to time
to see my mother
being down home isn’t quite death
but you can feel it crawling up your sleeve
when my time comes
give me dignity
burn my body
cast my ashes back to the sea
i don’t want my bones
trapped there
to endure eternity
steinbeck
Seventy-five years from now, they’ll be watching sepia-toned, Ken Burns style documentaries about The Great Depression of the early 21st century.
Grapes of Wrathy novels will be written by the city stoop and front porch grandchildren of the impoverished.
There will be photo essays of natural and man-made disasters, criminals, kings, and war.
They’ll blame the rising technological industry, polluters, presidents, mining operations, crooked corporations, and oil tycoons for the downfall of American society.
It will be known as the time in which the great drought began, before the great heat, and the second coming of the dust bowl.
There will be talk of how it influenced the art of the time, how the literature and culture were shaded as a result. They will say we were willing to do anything to be heard amidst the deluge, anything to assert that we were still alive.
as far as i can see
we still haven’t eaten the rich
but they seem to be ahead of the game
at raping and killing us
one slave wage job
and dirty politician
at a time
with every prescription written
yes indeed, choose your medication
over groceries this week, mrs. america
just keep eating those pills, honey
money can’t buy happiness
how bloody naïve
the affluent are giving greatness
as a graduation gift
and when juxtaposed to creation
the perpetuation of wealth and poverty
boils down to this
the greatest difference
between the rich and poor
is
every birth in the family
being considered
a joy
or a tragic burden
come winter
woke up this morning
full of
would-have-been-words
and the calm which descends
upon a woman in her mid 30’s
who fucking knows
exactly what life
isn’t planning on giving her
and what it almost did
my six year old frame
was just one of dad’s bottles of canadian mist
and a few tiny white pills away
from being raised
in abject poverty
in a town so poor
even the mayor is on food stamps
no escape no escape
thank you for having the good sense to die, daddy
so mama could drag me to the safety
and fluoride filled waters of the north
because i’m 400 years removed
from indian princess
but only one generation away
from the whitest trash on earth
you spared me the fire
the dropping out of high school
the five snotty lice ridden children
and worrying
about sealing the broken trailer windows
in plastic sheets
and kerosene heaters burning
the half retarded baby
come winter
you spared me from a walmart complexion
mcdonald’s thighs
and the crack toothed meth head
transient sometimes truck driving husband
who beats me regularly
now here i sit
too educated for my own good
i’m damn near intolerable
and my most cumbersome problem
is that the dog keeps dragging
my expensive plum robe from nordstrom’s
to the couch to sleep on it
i’m mixing irish cream into my coffee
fully aware of what class i’m boxing in
grateful for the blood
on my teeth and tongue
i could have been helpless
but instead i’m merely wasted
and enjoying the life
of a bourgeois drunk
jesus turned water into wine
before he got put up for the night
but you, father, in death
turned regret into gratitude
that’s a god damned christmas miracle
if ever there was one