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a darker blue
when my sons were tiny
standing at my side
each set of wee arms
wrapped around my pant legs
it was so easy to cover their faces
with my hands
turning their twin blonde heads in toward
my widened hip love and apron
to keep them from seeing
bloody clashes
crashes
and the cruelty of this life
but now they are tall and free
so much bigger than me
and my hands cannot reach far enough
to hold the innocence in their eyes
i almost didn’t believe he was real
it was easier to think his life was just another of your fictions
how could you keep nothing of him all these years
but one spring night
fate conspired with the devil
to make me understand
a picture of him rose to my hand
the hair
eyes
nose
beard
even the way he wore a hat
unmistakable
a mirror image skew of you
and you were right
he was softer
and more beautiful than you
first born, second loved, indeed
no wonder you had gone mad
i’m sorry he died
that your heart soon followed
and for every unknowing thing
i ever said